I've been pregnant
With agony
For a long long time
So long a time that
I thought my baby turned into
A great stone
It pressed me
Inside out
I dragged my feet
Everywhere
My stone baby was
Not warm not soft
Rough and sharp
It scraped me
Inside
It won't let me
Forget
Exquisitely heavy deep
And hallow
It ate Me
Slowly the fetus grew
I did not
Want it
But I could not
Throw it away
Only thing
Left to cherish
Reminding me
Not to forget to forget
I did not have
Anything else
Besides
This torment
And
You asked me
How I was
I
The forgotten
Me
That moment
River flowed out of me
With great pain
I gave birth to
Me
Then I said
I've been looking
All over
For you